Knowing you're not at my side anymore. There's is no problems between us right ? We didn't quarrel much and such. Thinking back, it may be my fault too. My insensitivity, my laziness, my ignorance, my harshness, my hot-temper, my unromantic actions, my thoughtlessness,  me. Knowing that  my girlfr will stop loving me. The feeling of a million daggers stab right into my heart. I know i'm not perfect, full of flaws. I'm sorry for my flaws, for my incapablities, for my uselessness, for my attitude, for my behaviors  and for not loving you more than you did. You may not know from my actions, but to me you're everything. My dreams, my hopes, my wishes, my life, without you i won't know what to do with my life. I always thought that you'll be my soul partner for the rest of my life, living with you, spending the rest of my life showered by your love but all these are just an illusion covering the harsh reality. Crushed dreams, crushed hopes were all that's left after 18oct. I still love you, in these 3months i didnt even spend a minute awake not thinking about you. i really want you to come back, you can mistreat me anyway you want i dont mind. haha such a weak person i am.

Most importantly you stay happy. If you're happy, all the pains i felt, all the tears i cried would be worth it. All for your smile. I'll give up anything for a smile on your face.


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