Why did i let myself fall so deep. Why do i fucked up everything. Why i always do wrong instead of right. Why do i let myself be vulnerable. Why...
Can someone just come and tell me why. Is it because im lazy,  is it because im bad, is it because of me. It happened once, it'll happen again sooner or later, but i don't want it to happen.
How ignorant can i be, how naive can i be.
Sometimes it hurts so bad that it brings me back to the time, where i wish my life is over. seems like running away is the only thing im good at. i still remember telling myself i have to be strong, but look how shitty im now. do you still love me, or you're just saying it because you need to. i have no confidence in you and more so me. i hate myself too for being this way. can someone just tightly hold my hand and pull me out of the abyss i made myself.